Present

The thought and idea that has permeated my day has been embracing the present. Along with that, and equally important, is the necessity of releasing the past and its grip on the present. Actually this issue came up yesterday as I spent 2 hours practicing breathing techniques and talking to myself about the importance of letting go of expectations and embracing reality AS IT IS NOW. I have a hard time sometimes keeping my thoughts focused, and if I have a particular anxiety it defies gravity as it will surely pop right back up after I coax it down with a healthy dose of reason. Often my anxieties, which are relatively few nowadays, comparatively, revolve around some certain "thing" that I can't let go of; some experience I've had or wished I've had that if I just toss it around in my ticker one more time I'll come to grips with it or settle it or put it to rest, and it's just not gonna happen that way. My aim is to listen to myself and allow myself to go through all the shades and hues and ins and outs of my issue patiently and without interruption, look it over fervently and try to come up with a certainty that quenches my thirst, but if it is unanswerable I must let it go, and accept that it doesn't fit into my present. And my present isn't a bad place to be!! jody